Flowers

These are the flowers I got delivered to me today at work. . .

from my boyfriend.

because I had a horrific day.

I did an interview that was beyond anything I have ever heard. A 4 hour interview pretty much took it out of me. After doing the interview I was so wiped that I just left the office and cried.

What some human beings are capable of doing to other human being is beyond me. Truly. Today was the first day that I can say I have never heard anything worse then that.

God willing this woman is still standing. I have no idea how. She is a saint and deserves the heavens above.

So today I will leave the office, drink wine and enjoy the day that has been given to me because you have to enjoy the good over letting the evil swallow you up.

Happy St. Patty's Day!

Happy St. Patty's Day!

Drink a green beer!

Hold a hand!

Take in a deep breath of the spring air!

Enjoy your day and wear your green or I am going to pinch you :)

03.16.10

How does this happen????

really?

on a plus note, I am so happy it is spring. I wore a dress to work with a flower in my hair.
It was so cold when I walked out to my car, but I was so determined not to wear a coat because it was spring. Mind set I tell you. Mindset.

So instead I scooted out to my car, then wrapped a blanket around my bare legs on my drive to work cause it was so chilly.

But today it reached 60, heavenly!! I am in such a good mood. Going to go pick up molly and take her for a jog cause I miss that pup so much!

Few Fun Facts

About my quaint, characteristic, unique apartment

1. I have run up and down the stairs many times in order to get dressed in the morning, due to the fact that my dresser is downstairs, and all my hanging up clothes are upstairs along with my "delicates" ;o) So I get half way dressed and think oh shoot I need to run upstairs again.

2. These stairs are not just any stairs, they are shallow, and steep and if you are not careful, you will hit your head going up or coming down. This morning I was walking down after just waking up and almost fell down the stairs and got a TBI. No bueno.

3. The shower....tiny. It is hard to shave your legs when you have to stand up, and what do you place your feet on to hold them up, you ask? nothing. Just lift up your leg and hold it in the air. I think by the time I am done living here, I will be a balancing contortionist. And since the walls are so thin it sounded like the radio my neighbor had playing in his bathroom was in my bathroom. I could hear everything, especially him singing :)

4. It is creaky and makes sounds from the shifting of an old house, and it is tiny and there are many unique characteristics about it, but it is mine.

Last night james and I played tetris and he ended the game when he said I was getting a little competitive, since he had been playfully pushed to the ground and punched in the arm for beating me. Me competitive....no. :o) All in good fun I say. But for the record I also beat him 3 times!

fyi

until I buy a tv next month

hulu has become my new best friend :)

Thankful

Here I sit snuggled into my new apartment, next to a window and the snow is gently falling outside. I am warm, comfortable and mostly peaceful.

As I sit here and reflect, I can't help but realize how much I have to be thankful for.

This group. Above.

Is my family. I am very blessed to have them in my life. They are the kind of people who step in when you need them. Life has been more then crazy. I have been overwhelmed and just sad from a major relationship in my life being drastically changed.

So what did they do, stepped in. The girls came over friday night and packed stuff into boxes and moved it over to my new apartment. Even mel who is like 41 weeks preggo and so beyond done waiting for sweet baby alice to come out, came and moved me. Not only on friday, but also Saturday.

These same girls who not only helped pack, transition, and move into new apartment, then laid hands on me and prayed for me and my time in my own space. To say the least I was humbled and overcome with tears. Each of them are precious to me. I feel blessed to call them my friends.

In fact the majority of them came to help me move on saturday. with their husbands. Who also are just a quality as the women they are married to.

This group has not only moved me once, nope not even twice, but this was the THIRD time!!!!!
That's right there is a sign to attest to just how fabulous they are!

There we sat with about 12 people all crammed into my tiny apartment. While the boys tried to figure out how the heck to get my stuff up the very challenging, as mike stated "perfect storm" of tiny spaces. The stairs are very steep and the roof is very slanted. Bad combo. I just felt so thankful and blessed.

I know some of you out there say that your small group is awesome. But believe you me, mine is better :)

Jen even made me homemade bread for my new home. What a doll!

We are not just a small group, but family. Who loves and steps in when we need it. I have been neglectful of others due to school, work, moving and life. But I can feel a new dawn coming. God renewing my energy and opening my eyes. Now granted the time aspect will still be challenging, but I can feel the beginning of stepping out of this hard time in my life.

I am also thankful for this guy.

It was so nice moving with him in my life. James drove up with his truck, parked, and just started loading stuff.

He then later, just told me to get settled and make the space my own.

He is a blessing to me for so many reasons.

He has patiently listened to my every freak out moment over the last two months when I am crying and saying I give up at life.

He calmly listens and gives advice, holds my hand, and tells me not to give up.

I love him and am grateful to have james michael kleiber by my side.

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Last night was my first night in my new place on my own. It went better then I expected. I kinda sound like a big girl huh? Well my life up until this point has not been completely independent, and now I am stepping out. Making my own path.

So last night I was reading through old journals, cause I think its important to know where you came from in order to understand where you are going.

I was reading and that time in my life, I was in a very different place then I am now.

It was not as bright. I was in a job I hated. No community.

Today I am at a very different spot.

A community I feel privileged to a part of.

In a job that I absolutely love.

A man in my life who just fits with my heart.

A new beginning.

A new phase of life.

Just me and God.

I feel God beckoning me. Calling for me to follow him into the unknown.

This is also very scary for me. But exciting.

Being Skooled (I know I spelled it wrong :)

So last night I spent 4 hours in a coffee shop working on a paper. I thought wow! It takes me a little bit more effort to get my creative juices flowing now as opposed to when I was in my undergrad.

Life was easier when I was in college and all I had to do was school. Now with working more then full time, in the process of moving, relationships and life and then SCHOOL on top of that ….phew!

So I was driving home, after working on my paper, and telling James that I am coming to a resolved that even if I don’t get A’s on all of my assignments that I am ok with that. Because something’s gotta give here or otherwise I am going to spontaneously combust. I said so far in my research/social work stats class I have gotten 100% on my first 3 assignments. But I had yet to be back my first big paper to see my grade.

So I said I will put this new me being ok with not always getting A’s into practice mode.

I walked in the door and there my paper was, waiting for me to open it, to see what my professor had given me on the paper.

I walk over

Open it……

And guess who got a 97% on her paper!!!!!

So I don’t have to be alright with not getting a’s, cause I got one!


Now this post may seem like I am bragging, but I am not. Well maybe a little I am J, but really I am just proud of myself and since I am not facebooking right now I wanted to share in a non look at me kind of way, so this is my outlet. Life has been crazy and its nice to know that after being out of college for almost 5 years that I may still have the hang of this being skooled thing.

On another great happy note when I walked out the door this morning, the peak looked absolutely beautiful as it was snow covered, and all the trees surrounding it were also.
Like a white blanket was placed over them.

I tried to leave my house in time to make to chick fil a for free chick n minis for customer appreciation week, cause they are like crack in my mouth. But alas I didn’t leave in time to make it there. Sad :(

But I did get to see pretty mountains instead and for this girl that even better. I love my mountains. I feel so blessed to live where I do.