Blogging

I want to do it more.

Maybe it is because I am thinking/analyzing/pondering

more

now that I am in grad school.

I have done a bad job at blogging as of late.

Due mostly because

I think it is too much

and

I have nothing good to say.

Well that's the whole point of blogs

they aren't really important

rather

random

ramblings.

As I am rambling right now

I look out of my office window

and

the snow is creeping over pikes peak

and moving eastward

like a heavy blanket.

I love that I can see that outside my window

conversely

at lunch it was sunny and 50 on the 27th of January.

Tonight I will zumba

and do research

for a research proposal.

Dear Grad school:

please don't be

too mean

to me

and

I promise

to be nice

to you

love katie :)

School

So I have started my Masters career

in Social work.

This past weekend I was up in Ft. Collins from friday am to sunday pm.

It was long to be in class

however

I love being in school again.

To walk on campus

surrounded by

old buildings

and students

and academia.

It was great.

It made me miss my college days.

Life as a distance student who is only there on

weekends is totally different.

But it was fun to feel like I was back in college.

It made me remember the library at Grand Valley State University.

Where I was would always sit on the 4th floor in a window and study

and how I LOVED the smell of that library.

the books

and the elevator.

The elevator smelled like old books and I loved it!

It was also a joy

to be surrounded by like minded people

who care about the things I care about

and think

like me :)

Social workers

we are a strange breed

of people

but we truly do

make the world a better place.

We advocate

for those who don't have a voice

we educate those who have not had the chance at education

We love

those whom society throws away

We pause to listen

to those

people

don't want to listen to

We help people

stand up

after they have been

knocked down.

We are people who pick you up and help you find hope

when there

seems to be

nothing

to hope for.

So being surrounded by these same fish who swim in the same pond as me.

Makes me feel happy.

I feel like I have found my home again.

It has been so long.

Now with that said working full time.

going to school part time

doing 12-15 hours of an internship per week

and doing life

is going to be challenging.

But I think I can do it.

I am excited/anxious for this next phase.

However good things are on the horizon.
God has not forgotten me.

One step in front of the other :)

Here we go....

symbolism

There are some images we see that resonate with us.

Resonate with our soul

because we feel that they represent us

or

speak to who we are.

For me the image that makes me feel at home

are

angel wings.

Whenever I see the image

on a postcard

or a shirt

it just causes

me to take a deep

breath

and sigh.

I don't know why this is, but it is something God has given me.

A special link between Him and I.

I am not saying I am an angel

however

I do think

I am on the front lines for

fighting

for children

who have been

abused.

for a reason

I think that God

hand picked me

to be doing

exactly what

it is

I am doing.

People always tell me

"I don't know how you can do your job,"

I

think

how can I not?

This weekend I went to go see Blind Side.

It made me cry so many times.

Because it is my heart to love those who

have been abandoned.

I have literally walked the foot steps of the character

portrayed by sandra bullock

of tucking teenagers into bed and reading them bedtime stories.

It makes my soul

scream

to think there are

children

who will not be given a

toy this christmas

or have no family to go home to

because being on the streets

is safer for them

then to be under the

roof

of where their biological family

resides.

This christmas

be Jesus

to someone.

A child.

anyone who needs to be loved.

Wrap your wings around them

because you can

and have been blessed.

Open your eyes.

Get out of your comfort zone.

Find someone who needs you.

There are lots of people

sometimes they are hiding because

they are ashamed

or feel embarrassed

But find them

and

love them.

Also in this christmas season: take a moment to be quiet and really spend time being present.

Last night...

Last night James and I had a date.
We hadn't spent any good quality time together in forever.

So we went out to eat at jose muldoons for dinner.
Then I was planning our date, last night so I told him where to drive.
As we were on our way to the broadmoore...it started snowing like crazy.

So I told james what we were going to do as we were on our way there and he said let's just see how it is.

So we went and it was enchanting.
truly it was.

We walked around the back where the snow was falling down at a delicate gentle speed.
Just soft.

We walked around in the snow, held hands, and admired all the lights.
I hummed christmas carols
and we attempted to take pictures.

Last night was enchanting.

I figured out james is not very good at taking candid shots with his phone. we are going to have to work on that :)

We just enjoyed each other's company and it felt magical.
We stood on a bench and looked at all of the beautiful decorated trees and james chased geese.
They were chip ring very loudly and not happy that james was upsetting their home.

Then on Monday he had these delivered to me at work :)

Palin

Sarah Palin's first stop on her book tour

is my home town.

This explains so much ;)

This weekend

This is the boy in my life.

I like him. :)

this weekend we went to the golden bee to celebrate with

ben and melissa

in finding out the sex of their baby.

It is now a she!

We also celebrated Ben being done with one job

and starting another.

It was a great time

singing with the piano man

drinking beer

and just laughing.

Then afterwards

everyone came back to the house

and we played

QUELF!!

The most odd game ever,

at one point

james had to pretend that a pencil was mistletoe and

see if he could get me to kiss him

I turned about 8 shades of red

and then closed my eyes

and puckered

he put his cheek

to my lips.

it was cute.

Saturday

was spent riding on the back of james'

motorcycle

up to the hungry bear

and around in

Garden of the Gods.

It was the perfect day to be riding around on the back of a motorcycle

especially james' motorcycle!

LASIK

I got Lasik done last saturday.
It was incredibly quick procedure.
Laid down and after a few brief minutes probably like 5 or 6 I was done.

Since then the healing process has been hit or miss.
At work I have to work at a computer and do most of my work when
not with families at my desk and thus
my eyes have been hurting and burning.

I had monday off, took wednesday off cause my eyes were killing
and yesterday ended up having to take the afternoon off because
I was in so much pain.

So I went back to the doctor just to see if I was being a big baby
or there was really something wrong.
As soon as I walked in the doors
they looked at me and said wow your eyes are really red.
In my head I am thinking, "gee you think I don't know that, now fix it."

So they told me it was extreme dryness, they took pictures of my eyes
and I started crying while I was seeing the doctor because my eyes just burned
so bad!!

I wanted the numbing drops to put in my eyes just so I could work
and to get through the healing process. Unfortunately the drops apparently
make my cornea too soft. Honestly I did not care and just wanted
the pain to go away.

So it turns out I was not being a big baby and the pain was real.
The lady told me I was definitely having an adverse reaction and this
was not the norm for most patients. oh yipee, guess I get to be in the painful,
very painful minority :(

So they gave me a coupon for these special eye drops and basically vaseline for
my eyes. I can say that I have never thought that putting vaseline in my eyes
would be a fun thing to do, however it FINALLY brought relief to my
very red/sore eyes.

I got to a point last night after putting frozen vegetables on my eyes that I need to start
praying about this and letting it go. It hit me like a ton of bricks why had I not
been praying about this, so I started praying about it.

So today I awoke and my eyes were feeling sooo much better. I feel as though they

are finally starting to heal. Praise the Lord! Thank the Lord!!!

The crazy part in all of this is that I can see! I can see when I wake up in the middle of the night and look at the alarm clock. I can see details I have never been able to see before.
I can see fine print on stuff far away. I can appreciate all the small details
that I never have been able to before.
My vision is 20/15 and that is amazing. All in all I will say that this process
even though painful will definitely be worth it in the long run. I just
can't wait to get to the other side of the healing process.

Yeah for seeing!