Thoughts

Across the board continent of a woman's life falls the shadow of a sword.

On one side of that sword, there lies convention and tradition and order where

"all is correct."

But on the other side of that sword, if you're crazy enough to cross it and choose a life that does not follow convention and

"all is confusion, nothing follows regular course"

A woman's argument was the the crossing

of the shadow

of the

sword

may bring a far

more

interesting existence to a

woman.

But you can bet it will also be more perilous

-Virginia Woolf

It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly

then

to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection.

-Bhagavad Gito, ancient Indian Yogic text

Admittedly, I am not

the one who looks

fantastic in everything

however

I

cannot help but

love

myself

anyways.

My thoughts on my life today.

Insecure, but ok with that.

Looking around I see that I will make it

God, is in control.

Thank goodness for that.

Amen.

My 27th birthday.

Went to Il Vicino for dinner with my girls.

Then

We went to America the Beautiful Park

for presents and cupcakes

made by rachel

My great friends

Dinner at Il Vicinos
Attempting a pyramid

Pretty sunset

Another shot.

Bestie and me.

Thanks to my girls for a great night.

They got me a bike basket and accessories for my birthday

Pics to come.

Rachel got me a bike helmet cause my old one,

made me looked like I rode the short bus. :)

All in all great birthday

and my 80s kickball party

is still

to come :)

Shawna and Bella

Recently, I got to hang out with Shawna and bella

Beautiful girls like shawna make beautiful little girls like bella :)
Kisses.

See what I mean?

Bella attempting to give the camera a kiss.

cuteness.

How could you not love this little girl?

They are both precious to me.

I grew up

here.

In the summers.

My family had a cottage up here on this lake

Every summer was spent here.

Every weekend.

Playing in the water.

I think I could swim

before

I could walk.

I have so many fond memories from this place.

So this week my parents are vacationing

up at the lake

and my dad sent me this pic, below
of a
fawn
he found
in the woods.

He told me it was not hurt
but sensed the nature lover in him
so the fawn did not run away :)

What a cool thing to experience.

My dad is a nature lover,

I get that from him.

Being out in God's creation and adoring

beauty.

Wish I could've been there to have a fawn suck on my finger.

Sweet Bikes

These are my sweet bikes.

I recently got my old sweet beach cruiser fixed up at the bike shop.

I was riding it around yesterday in the alley with molly (the dog ;) just running next to me.

and I couldn't have been happier.

Just riding along

with a smile

on

my face.

The bike was a gift from my mom.

I said thanks.

Packed in my car when I moved out to Colorado

and

her name is

Susie the bike :)

Since in being in Colorado.....
I have bought this sweet mountain bike.
I have also had good times on this bike.
I smile on this bike, but usually
because
I am going too fast on it
or
almost flipped
over my handle bars
from trying
to ride
up
or down
a mountain.

I love biking, its good to feel the air through your hair.

Get out there today. Find a bike
if its your
or someone else's (make sure to ask first, gosh ;)

and....

ride :)

Old Posts

So I was going through some of my old posts, and noticed I used to be a lot more reflective in my blogs. I seem to have lost that touch, well at least here.

I think that is what happened when you are so stressed, which ironically journaling/blogging and getting out my thoughts is a way to destress.

But it takes time. It seems my time has been filled up by not constructive things.

Like drama.

Drama is dumb and I don't like it.

Makes me want to do this

I will probably a grandma who loves Jesus, but drinks a little :)

So work, I love work but I have been doing too much for it because we have been short staffed.

Being stressed makes me not awesome, like I usually am ;)

So I want to get back to being more reflective and appreciate the smaller things in life and

choosing joy.

To do the things that I enjoy, laughing, riding my new/old bike, drinking wine, and just having fun and enjoying every moment.

I am done with stupid things in my life, I am just too cool for dumb things.

Get over it people, seriously!

I miss....

home.

I have two homes, Colorado and Michigan.

However I miss the home where my family is and the place I grew up.

I love living in Colorado, but miss my family.

Those kiddos in pics above are my heart.

They are precious and it sometimes physically hurts to be away from them.

I often know when I have been gone from home too long

when...

I subconsciously picture

random

places from

home.

I don't realize it

until

my head has put a picture of some

random

place in my head.

Then I sigh and wish it wasn't so long until I get to go home

and

spend time

with my

kiddos.

At the end of summer I will be home.

That's a long time.

So until then, I guess I will just keep picturing random

places in

good

ole

g-ville.