peace

I am peaceful. As someone would be who is looking at this picture, only as if they were in the inside of it.

I know is has been a little bit since I have posted, but I have been a busy girl :o)

Recently I have been cleansing my life, what it is I partake it, what I do, how I act, what I say, what I watch on tv...and I am telling you what a difference it has made. I am sleeping better, I am happier, I am closer and more at peace with God than I have been in along time.

This change in my life has been preceeded by being intentional with people and being honest with my crap and having people hold me accountable. It is hard as anything. But that is why God created us for relationships and community. I love it.

Secrets suck! They keep us isolated from people and our creator, which is exactly what Satan wants. He wants us to keep those secrets and put that shame on us so we think no one would/could understand what I have done. They will think I am awful person. But guess what you are a crappy person( i mean that in the kindest way i can :o)), but that's ok cause everyone is. No one is perfect. So let someone in on your crap, I bet you will be surprised how they react. If they are good people and don't act stupid and judge you, they will rather receive you with grace as God does.

On my foot I have a tatoo of the word "grace" in hebrew, one of the original languages of the bible. It is sweet and it hurt like heck getting it on the bone in my foot, but it is a good reminder to me that God is grace, all the time. He doesn't care if it is 4 am and I need to talk, where as if someone woke me up at 4 am to talk I most likely would roll over and say see ya in the morning :o) I like sleep what can i say.

Be grace to people, loving them when they surely do not deserve it and when our human nature says no way!

But I think it is time for us as humans to really be raw and get to the bottom of our crap and move on. Live a better life. Be joyful. Be peaceful. For me that means being in God's hand, because He truly has my best and has to sift me before I get those blessings.

Judgement

Today I was in a park sitting on a bench reading a book, the sun was shining and the wind blowing and it was glorious. I was somewhat in my own world due to the fact that I am reading a great book and something caught my attention out of the corner of my eye.

It was a dad and his little boy who had to be about 2 years old who were both running around the park on the sidewalk. It was precious. It just made me smile cause this dad was running only for the enjoyment of his son. I think it is important for us to do things like this. Run around the park, even if we feel silly. Take our shoes off and put our feet in the grass. Take the moment to look up in the sky and notice flowers.

As I was walking back to my car I saw a homeless man and a thought came into my head,

what if he asks for money, do I have any, would I give it to him, what would he
spend it on?

The follow up thought I had was,

who cares what he spends it on. It is not my place to judge him. It is the
Lord's.

That is a relief to me. Because I don't have to get caught up in the apologetics of it all. I can just love people and be generous with what I have been given.

This is a bother to me with Christains, who get judgemental and caught up on the techinicalities of issues. I mean seriously Jesus came to love people, that's it. Not to be silly and argue over the little things. I want to tell some Christains to get over themselves, and get humble. I have learned so much from being at the feet of Jesus.

You know what I have found out? The closer to Him I am, the more I learn, and the more that I am happy and content. The more I am quiet, the more wisdom He blesses me with. The more I spend getting to know Him, the more He shows me what this life is really about.

Don't judge people, it's stupid.

You don't want to be stupid do you? It's not your job, just love 'em.

Go Green!

Today is Earth Day, are you aware of that?


I don't think I was ever aware of Earth day when I lived in Michigan except when I was in elementary school perhaps. However now that I live in Colorado I am very aware that it is Earth day today.

It was interesting as I was driving up to Ft. Collins this weekend for an Aaron Strumpel concert, some friends and I were discussing the fact that

going green has become trendy.

Cathy, my friend said she walked into JCPenney and there were a plethora of t-shirts with slogans across them about saving the Earth and going green and how it is cool. For those of you who don't know going green means this.

For instance the recent commercials which put two individuals who could not be more different in world veiws on the same couch and they make a socially acceptable comment about how they don't agree on much, but they do agree that we do need to do something about saving our world. Then they look at each other, smile, and laugh jovially.

Now I agree we do need to save our planet and I am glad quit frankly, that going green is becoming trendy. I have been trying to go green too, and buy organic meats and what not.

It was just interesting to me how really if the fashion industry and MTV want they can make us to think something is cool...it can be done.

Happy Earth Day. Plant a tree or do this.

Happy Birthday Darling!

Today is my neice's third birthday. She is the most precious little girl ever. Some of the pictures I have below are old. But she is still one of my favorites. Happy Birthday Darling!

For her birthday I sent her a pink tiara, pink princess shoes and fun jewelry cause she is a little princess and loves being a little girl.

This is the hard part about living on the other side of the country from your family :o(

Bare Feet to Snow

Yesterday I came to work wearing sandals cause it was warm and sunny when I left home.

About six hours later I look outside (mind you my "office" is in the basement of a building with no windows so I often do not know what is happening outside) and it was snowing and not just a light fluffy pretty snow. Oh no, it was snowing sideways and the wind was horrific. It was still somewhat warm so the snow was heavy, thick, and full of moisture. Needless to say walking out in my little shirt and sandals with snow going sideways at me was not fun. This is what it ended up looking like when it was done snowing.

But the rest of the night was fun. My bible study got cancelled because of the weather so I went to a friends house with hot chocolate in hand cause what is better to sip on a cold night? Hot chocolate.

Driving home was like I was in a winter wonderland, on one road it is covered with trees and the snow was covering every branch. It was as if I was driving in a snow tunnel, quite a neat experience.



The last couple of days have been fun. Filled with hikes up mountains, 70 year old men calling me pretty :o)

Eddie Eagle

I need to preface this post with this is the fun part of my job doing the community event for the Sheriff's Office I work for.

I won this mascot for my work by entering an essay contest and only five were given out nationally, so it is a pretty big deal that we got one. The deputies love me for putting them in the mascot too :o)

So for the day I got to ride in our armored vehicle that we take on SWAT calls (which you can see pictures of at the bottom of this post). It was very neat to ride down the road sitting up front and having people look at you like what the heck are you driving and where are you going, someone even video taped us. Kinda felt like a celebrity.

So the guys and I show up to this elementary school with the lights and sirens going and get the kids all riled up and have Eddie Eagle standing up top of the BEAR and have fun with kids and give out badges and have 200 kingergarten and 1st graders attacked me. It was great!

Foggy Streets

Today it rained/snowed for a short time.

Then it cleared up, the sun came out and it caused the streets to become really foggy. Like there was smoke coming off from them. It looked so cool I felt like I was driving through smoke or I was on a movie. It was neato.

Made me think God is pretty mysterious and this is just a touch of the splendor and awe He can create with just the touch of His finger.

Last night I sat on a rock over looking the city playing I spy with Rachel it was pretty grand.

This weekend I found the third tunnel to Gold Camp road where legend has it that the tunnel collasped and in doing so killed a bunch of catholic school girls and if you go there at night they reach out to you....spooky I know :o)

I just thought it was a beautiful hike with friends. I love hiking in the mountains, especially in Cheyenne Mountain Park. The hikes there are so beautiful and you never really quite know

P.s. Does anyone want to play on a softball leagued with me through church..but you have to be good that is my only requirement :o)