I am starting my internship this week. Which means in order to fit that in I have to starts working 10 hour shifts at work so I can fit in 12-15 hours at my internship each week.
So I am working 8-7. And taking on extra responsibility at work because we don't see families from 5-7 so I will be doing extra duties for those extra two hours. Plus taking grad school classes on top of all of that. Phew just typing it makes me tired.
Tomorrow I start at my internship. I am nervous. It is a lot of change this week. I awoke early before the sun rose because I am anxious. I am not excited to be spread so thin for the next year of my life. I don't do well when I am that busy.
So I awoke early and was praying. I needed some good face to face time with God anyways :) I was praying for a lot of things,
patience
mercy
strength
focus
determination
perseverance
health
and sleep!
God told me to be still. Be present in each moment. Be aware. Be focused. Choose joy!
I needed to hear this. I needed to be calmed by my creator. The only one who really calms me in that way. I just got back from vacation and it was wonderful. I will post pics of that soon!
Today I am remaining calm and enjoying some quietness before my world gets turned upside down for the next while. I keep telling myself to take deep breaths and take it one day at a time. Which is hard for me. I worry, too much. It comes naturally though :) But I can't go much forward more then one day or I think I will melt.
So here today, I will put one foot in front of the other and move forward. It will be a busy season of my life, but a good one. I am going to try my hardest to be present, to love James well in all of this busyness, to get good grades in school, to do well at my internship and learn a lot, to be able to learn how to do therapy with kids, to work with offenders, do well at my job, sleep somewhere in there, and most importantly spend time with the one who created me!
Think I will go crazy? :)



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